It's three in the morning and 'Liability' by Lorde is echoing in my room on perpetual loop. I never felt so understood as a lover, a woman, and a human with any other songs before. It's true; I yearn to disappear into the sun, along with these elusive feelings inside my chest. It's been tailing me for awhile now, makes breathing feels like a mare. My wounds weep. Yet my gut feeling convinced that tomorrow might be the someday I've been waiting for. But look who's fooling herself everyday.
The medicine will put me to sleep faster than the speed of sound. The vagaries of my thoughts will unravels and falls into disarray. It will make them stop bickering with each other. Instead, they will walk side by side like an old enemy turning into a friend. It will eventually put me at ease, forcing me to make peace with my inner turmoil, even put me in the throne as their ruler. At least for tonight.
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